8 more treatments to go

I had chemo yesterday and I think my body is still humming from all the steroids. I did sleep a little better but seemed really drained after treatment. Just basic stuff wears me out and my fine motor skills seem to be very effected. I do think my hair is starting to grow back, YEAH! I have peach fuzz everywhere, even on my face which seems really weird...The neuropathy was pretty bad in my hands yesterday but it seems to have let up a little this morning. As the end of chemo approaches I am growing increasingly uneasy about how to get my life back on track. How do you not live in fear? During treatment you are actively doing something to fight this horrible disease but what next? My mother and sister gave me a book to read entitled After Breast Cancer but I have not read it yet. Maybe that will help. I have missed seeing my friends but I think they see their worst fear when they look at me...I don't know. It makes me sad. Prince of Peace families have been wonderful and I thank God everyday for being part of this community. Sitting in the chemo chair really puts your priorities in order and I intend to remember that feeling as I move forward in life. So much really doesn't matter. I now say what is on my mind and don't dance around it. Not that I every really did. Life is to short to be petty and mean. I hope to have many more years to teach my children how to embrace life but if not I will not waste the time I have now! Have a wonderful weekend!